revisited.

Today, the feelings I had for you long ago came back and embodied me for a full four minutes.

That was four minutes too long.

But I did enjoy it.

On another well-randomed note, my philosophy class has finally warmed up to me thanks to a friend. I would gladly share this lovely passage that I cannot seem to get over:

'But perhaps I am something greater than I myself understand, and all the perfections which I attribute to God are somehow in me potentially, though not yet emerging or actualized. For I am now experiencing a gradual increase in my knowledge, and I see nothing to prevent its increasing more and more to infinity.'

I love this all too much. RIP Descartes' Meditations, we move on from you starting tomorrow.

shoutout.

It's amazing how one person can change you. The way you act, the way you perceive things, the way you feel. Just from one force of nature.

And I'm not just talking about your lovey dove, but all of the people who has touched your soul from the very start. Nuts to think how we've come to where we are at this current moment don'tcha think? What would've happen if you reacted in a different way or didn't say anything [that's the worst]? If someone hadn't done something in a particular situation, where would you be right now? I couldn't be any more appreciative about who's fallen in and even out of my life. Here are examples of only a few darlings and devils, you'll know who you are.

The act of your parents living so close to mine for ten years and coincidentally sharing the same love for the creative world.

Checking up on me once in awhile.

Tye dying a shirt for the Spiderman premiere only led to a continuous passion for shirt making and an awareness of causes not only for us but our peers. No big.

The subtle kindness which is overwhelming, in a good way.

Your 'good morning' texts.

Making a simple plan to get together for the Fourth of July while we sat on a trampoline was only the beginning of plans laid out for us.

Being an example, my personal role model.

Your perseverance to steering me into a religion, I'm aware of all now.

A minor 'we should do lunch' once our high school career ended resulted in a lasting friendship that probably wouldn't have even been considered beforehand.

Those rare painful comments that hurt the most because for some reason, it keeps me going and striving.

Your spontaneity combined with my curiosity.

Being your true self and me accepting it. Vice versa.

Your belief of my truth being a lie. You've affected me greatly. Thank you most of all, I was going down the wrong path anyways.

So take time today, well no not only today. Take time often to be appreciative of how far you've come and what/who has brought you here.

Last comment: I know, I'm gross doing so much writing and not enough eye candy. Soon Soon Soon.

scattered-brain. go figure.

Format for the day (might continue, who knows with my way of thinking)-all of the random thoughts that run through my mind before 9 AM.

1. Whenever "no one would ever wear this together" crosses my noggin I immediately stop questioning and go out the door.

2. School has started and my adventures have come to an unfortunate and sudden stop..kind of.

3. Replace hair band on my wrist with my friendship bracelet, check.

4. I felt really fierce today because I reunited with my super reflective shades with my 80s neon pink tank from Cali Select.

5. Tucson city buses, get your own lane and stop holding up traffic!

6. Muscular, shirtless, glistening man who I frequently see running on the side of the streets..keep it up.

7. Colbie Caillat, you make my heart smileee.

8. My feet were quite interested in the shoes that have been unworn for years.

9. Need to shrink the stomach and get fuller faster!

10. Obsession with junk. Tucson=perfect junk citaaay. Also, you get me excited for storms although I about pee my pants every time.

Don't protect my heart, have your way with it.

Because I want to feel something...

I want to feel you. And hurry because I'm 

too impatient for your lovin'.